The day i chose to walk away.

 17 May 2026

A date that was supposed to be filled with celebration, laughter, and love? Instead, it became the day I finally accepted something I had been waiting for a long time

I chose to walk away 

Not because I stopped loving you

Not because I hated you

Not because I wanted someone else.

I walked away because I was tired of waiting for answers that never came.

For months, I held on to hope, and I kept believing that maybe things would get better. Maybe tomorrow would be different. Maybe if I loved a little harder, cared a little more, understood a little deeper, things would eventually fall into place.

But hope can be exhausting when you're carrying it alone. 

The hardest part wasn't the arguments or misunderstandings.

The hardest part was feeling like I was fighting for something on my own. Like I was standing in the middle of the conversation, which only had one voice.

I was asking questions that were never answered. Like I was reaching out, only to find empty space. I started to feel like I was clapping with one hand.  Trying to create something beautiful from a connection that no longer felt mutual

And maybe that's what broke me the most.

Not the silence itself. 

Every unanswered question becomes an answer? kan

The uncertainty.

Rasa, macam every time I waited, hoped, and prayed for reassurance, I was slowly realizing that love should not feel this lonely

Every time I hoped for clarity, I was left wondering, and eventually I started asking myself...

Bertepuk sebelah tangan, masih peduli, masih sayang, masih berharap tapi i wasn't sure if we standing in the same place anymore

Somehow, that's a painful realization.

sebab bila kita sayangkan someone,  kita sanggup tunggu untuk satu jawapan walaupun nothing. ada satu moment bila kita tunggu tapi tanpa jawapan yang hadir. ada waktu kita rasa hilang diri kita sendiri

on my birthdayy i pilih untuk undur diri :) walaupun paling sukar.

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